Monday, 25 November 2013

Unwelcome here

Well  honestly,  this  might  sound  down  right  pitiful but I am unashamed  of how  I feel . Sometimes I feel  unwelcome here. Its  not just  you, but its  that  look  in your  eyes  like  I am some  sort  of infidel, misfit, a rebel  of my kind. Those  feelings  last  but a second but it happens  almost  everyday so I have  begun  to wonder .....Is it me or you ?

One  thing  is certain  never  take  things  personally. You cannot  control  people. There is a huge amount of freedom that comes from not taking things personally, the world could gossip about you, throw stones and what not and that wouldn't affect you. What others do or say about you has nothing to do with you it has  everything to do with their perception and their own fears about themselves. You hold the truth of who you are, other people's opinions, good or bad are inconsequential. The truth of who you are should drown all the voices of the naysayers. What kind of a frail, fragile shell of human would you be if your every move was based on the opinion of others? Could you satisfied knowing that your actions were dependant on someone else? The thing is the are many truths out there ----think of a lake and people completely surrounding the lake ....if you ask everyone to only at what is directly in front of them, then ask them what they see , you will find different perceptions of it (but never would they say it is a lake) but that doesn't make each person's opinion wrong-----it is right from the perspective they are coming from. The thing about perspective is that it is riddled with automated beliefs systems, most of which we are utterly unaware of, things like past experiences which inhibit our present growth either blatantly or subtly. Adopting someone else's belief that you are ugly, or inadequate is not only illogical but stupid. How can you sign onto someone else's idea of your reality?

 But be sure before you outlaw this idea that someone else has of you , think about whether this is really true. We ought not even to take our own opinions of ourselves as the absolute truth. Be honest with yourself, that's the only way to grow. Introspection is important here yet again, if  you know the truth of who you are, your weaknesses and strengths, no one can make you believe something about you that is not in line with your thinking. You have got to learn to take people's compliments and critics with a grain of salt because everything they say is based on their reality and not yours. A sense of self based on other people's opinion's of you is fickle and frail. Once your sense of self and self-worth comes from within no one can shake you. That's why must become your biggest cheerleader and your harshest critic.

For example; I have  noticed  about  myself  that  I tend  to over  talk  or try to persuade  people .......perhaps  that  is off putting but as a very  sensitive  person  I have  gone  through  a lot  and  I hate  to see people  especially  ones  I love  go through  any sort  of pain . But sometimes  love  means  allowing  people  to make  their  own  mistakes. I realise  that  sometimes  I talk  to much  because  I get excited,  growing  up it was hard  to find  people  to relate  to so naturally  a lot things  have  been  bottled  up. But that  is not excuse for shutting  other  people  up. Just  as you would  have  liked  to expressed  certain  things  they  deserve the same  respect. Also  give  people  their  air  time. Listen! There  is no act more loving  than  listening  to what  someone  else  has to say. We all want  to be heard. Give  what  it is you desire  for yourself  and it will be granted  unto  you.

Back  to the feeling  unwelcome  here  part, perhaps  this  is your  temporary  residence  maybe  you are just  passing  through  light years  ahead  of the rest of us. Maybe  this  uncomfortable  feeling  is anxieties  manifesting  .....maybe  its  telling  you to get up and change. Sometimes  when  we at a standstill and absolutely  nothing  much  is going  on in our lives, our wounds  have  been  opened  or perhaps  we have  finally  discovered  that  they do in fact  exist we must  and boy  I mean  must  heal  our broken  selves. Because  we are preparing  for our upcoming  battle.We ought  to recognise our faults,  the things  that  are hindering  our growth and  boy  lately  I have  noticed  alot of them. Perhaps  to many. Fact  remains  your  past  should  not be your  permanent  residence. You are destined  for greatness.  We are born  and bred  champions. Don't  let the tiny  sores  get in the way of your  victory. Heal  your  past  so it does  not hinder  your  future. Hold on to the truth of who you are and never let anyone take that from you.

Heart Follower