Manipulation

I´m not quite sure if manipulation is something many people resonate with, but this is something that has been quite prevalent in my stratosphere lately. I have grown to remember that manipulation and control is not being driven by a loving force but by fear. I have chosen to stick to what holds true for my soul and release the need to control absolutely everything in my life. 

While I don´t necessarily believe that people are inherently bad, I do  believe that in some ways people who try to manipulate you, are wounded. They have been traumatised by some life event or perhaps the one that seems more relevant to  my own experience is that before one could even walk, or talk or even do anything for themselves they were given some unrealistic, biased and unconditional reward system by virtue of their existence. This is not the same as praising a child for the good attributes and continuing to encourage them even when they don´t. It´s about giving them more power and control than they can presently handle. I´m not even saying that life is about learning lessons like we do in school, life is about remembering all that we already are. I am not one who believes that things ought to given to you simply by virtue of being male or female, or even by virtue of race, class, ethnicity or any other label that perceivably divides us. What I am saying is that the state of this planet is as a result of our collective consciousness. Why do we want such suffering for ourselves? Why did we choose to forget our origins?

Perhaps the answers lie deep within us. What would happen if there was nothing to be done? What if there was nothing to fix? Why have we chosen to experience ourselves as the light that we are when we could just be the light? Sometimes the light cannot know who it is, what it does and how it feels about itself until it has become it´s total opposite and experienced itself from another perspective. Maybe we are here for the experience of experience? Maybe the truth lies in the simplicity, clarity and lovingness of the message. There are so many truths out there but when we let our souls, our inner voice guide us we we choose the path of love instead of fear.When you truly remember who you are, you will undoubtedly relinquish the need for approval, the need to always be right, the need for you to to be in control. When you finally accomplish this, not through force though, allowing  yourself to be created as you desire it, only  then will you see the  truth that needs to be.

xoxoxo

Heart Follower

*I would like to extend photo credits to Kheva August from EVolve *

Truth is...

''Innocence is the ability to give and receive love without holding on.''-Deepak Chopra

Truth is... I'm ok. I am ok with it all, I'm ok with letting it all hang loose, letting it all rip at the seams, I'm ok with other people's quick judgements, I'm ok with carrying this burden and most of all I am ok with feeling this unbelievable lightness that comes with every unconventional decision I make. I have heard so many people disapprove of my decisions, others that  tell me to shut up and get real with myself but I'm ok with even that too.

See I know me, I have grown so used to myself and so in tune with what I really desire and want that I am unwilling to give my power away to something so frail and flimsy. Sure, I have made mistakes, plenty even and I will continue to make them. But just like every true yogi knows that yoga is not about being more loose or flexible or about showing off, it's about what you learn on your way into the pose, it's about acknowledging the sensations that arise and breathing into the uncomfortable sensations of the moment. It's about getting comfortable in the uncomfortable. True yogis know that yoga is about acceptance of self. It's about surrendering to what is and releasing what was. That's basically what life is about too! Yoga is not a religion its a philosophy for life.

Truth is I am just so gorgeously flawed, outlandishly actually, I share my hopes, struggles and dreams in the hopes that it saves you time and energy. I really do  hope it helps. I don't do anything perfectly, I am hopelessly flawed and loving it, I genuinely care and wish I could make a difference by simply laying it all out there. As I grow up I have come to realise that some people are starting to become strangers, even those you still hang out with occasionally. Do you honestly concur that by judging me, your little indiscretions go under the radar? That the whole world is fooled by what you ''perceivably '' are  doing  right ? My scars are signs that I am healed, can you say the same? I used to think that real recognises real, that if I was genuine everyone would show up genuine too. Boy, was I wrong! Some people have grown into strangers lately, I'm not talking about people that constantly check up or even occasionally check up because for some people there is no time and space that could ever separate our love. But the efforts that seem forced, seem like such a fragile, shallow existence of a friendship that only exists if we continue to be seen together and perpetuate the idea that what once was still persists. Even if our interactions never venture past the exterior of your vastly uncharted soul. Now I mean exploring another's soul through deep intellectual conversations. It seems kind of disingenuous if we continue to run just on the mundane small talk everyday all the time and for me personally I tend to swerve around those kind of relations. 

xoxoxo

Heart Follower