Well honestly, this might sound down right pitiful but I am unashamed of how I feel . Sometimes I feel unwelcome here. Its not just you, but its that look in your eyes like I am some sort of infidel, misfit, a rebel of my kind. Those feelings last but a second but it happens almost everyday so I have begun to wonder .....Is it me or you ?
One thing is certain never take things personally. You cannot control people. There is a huge amount of freedom that comes from not taking things personally, the world could gossip about you, throw stones and what not and that wouldn't affect you. What others do or say about you has nothing to do with you it has everything to do with their perception and their own fears about themselves. You hold the truth of who you are, other people's opinions, good or bad are inconsequential. The truth of who you are should drown all the voices of the naysayers. What kind of a frail, fragile shell of human would you be if your every move was based on the opinion of others? Could you satisfied knowing that your actions were dependant on someone else? The thing is the are many truths out there ----think of a lake and people completely surrounding the lake ....if you ask everyone to only at what is directly in front of them, then ask them what they see , you will find different perceptions of it (but never would they say it is a lake) but that doesn't make each person's opinion wrong-----it is right from the perspective they are coming from. The thing about perspective is that it is riddled with automated beliefs systems, most of which we are utterly unaware of, things like past experiences which inhibit our present growth either blatantly or subtly. Adopting someone else's belief that you are ugly, or inadequate is not only illogical but stupid. How can you sign onto someone else's idea of your reality?
But be sure before you outlaw this idea that someone else has of you , think about whether this is really true. We ought not even to take our own opinions of ourselves as the absolute truth. Be honest with yourself, that's the only way to grow. Introspection is important here yet again, if you know the truth of who you are, your weaknesses and strengths, no one can make you believe something about you that is not in line with your thinking. You have got to learn to take people's compliments and critics with a grain of salt because everything they say is based on their reality and not yours. A sense of self based on other people's opinion's of you is fickle and frail. Once your sense of self and self-worth comes from within no one can shake you. That's why must become your biggest cheerleader and your harshest critic.
For example; I have noticed about myself that I tend to over talk or try to persuade people .......perhaps that is off putting but as a very sensitive person I have gone through a lot and I hate to see people especially ones I love go through any sort of pain . But sometimes love means allowing people to make their own mistakes. I realise that sometimes I talk to much because I get excited, growing up it was hard to find people to relate to so naturally a lot things have been bottled up. But that is not excuse for shutting other people up. Just as you would have liked to expressed certain things they deserve the same respect. Also give people their air time. Listen! There is no act more loving than listening to what someone else has to say. We all want to be heard. Give what it is you desire for yourself and it will be granted unto you.
Back to the feeling unwelcome here part, perhaps this is your temporary residence maybe you are just passing through light years ahead of the rest of us. Maybe this uncomfortable feeling is anxieties manifesting .....maybe its telling you to get up and change. Sometimes when we at a standstill and absolutely nothing much is going on in our lives, our wounds have been opened or perhaps we have finally discovered that they do in fact exist we must and boy I mean must heal our broken selves. Because we are preparing for our upcoming battle.We ought to recognise our faults, the things that are hindering our growth and boy lately I have noticed alot of them. Perhaps to many. Fact remains your past should not be your permanent residence. You are destined for greatness. We are born and bred champions. Don't let the tiny sores get in the way of your victory. Heal your past so it does not hinder your future. Hold on to the truth of who you are and never let anyone take that from you.
xoxoxo
Heart Follower
